Will Smith’s latest confession is more shocking than his recent admission of being suicidal. The ‘Summertime” emcee wrote in a People Magazine exclusive that he had thought about murdering his father.
On Thursday, the outlet published an excerpt from the actor’s new memoir, “Me. The chilling reveal noted that Will’s younger years were rife with watching his father, Willard Carroll Smith, Sr., brutalize his mom, Caroline Bright. The pair had four children together.
“My father was violent, but he was also at every game, play, and recital,” Will, 53, wrote. “He was an alcoholic, but he was sober at every premiere of every one of my movies. He listened to every record. He visited every studio.”
The tortured man recalled an incident when the elder Smith almost killed his mother.
“When I was nine years old, I watched my father punch my mother in the side of the head so hard that she collapsed. I saw her spit blood.”
The couple broke up when Will was a teenager and divorced in 2000.
The relationship with Willard changed, and the actor struggled with being close to his dad even though he wound up caring for him as he battled cancer.
During that time, Will described a dark moment in his life, saying, “One night, as I delicately wheeled him from his bedroom toward the bathroom, a darkness arose within me. The path between the two rooms goes past the top of the stairs. As a child, I’d always told myself that I would one day avenge my mother.”
“I paused at the top of the stairs,” he continued. “I could shove him down and easily get away with it. As the decades of pain, anger, and resentment coursed then receded, I shook my head and proceeded to wheel Daddio to the bathroom.”
His father eventually succumbed to cancer in 2016.
Will contemplated their relationship, saying, “There is nothing that you can receive from the material world that will create inner peace or fulfillment.
“In the end, it will not matter one single bit how well [people] loved you — you will only gain ‘the Smile’ based on how well you loved them.”
The memoir drops on Nov. 9.